wishing to go somewhere far away .
As much as I understand how messed up you are too, you shouldn’t have said those hurtfull things to me, your best friend, after 12 years together, sharing all the good and the bad moments, to ups and downs! Whoa, I must admit it rlly shocked me and made me crawl in bed for almost a day, but you know who gave me, and still gives me the strenght I need to keep on going?¡ GOD, and of course my amazing family & sister in law as well.
Im nothing without them, And They’re nothing without me. WE ARE ONE. As simple as that. I hope the best for you, I apologize for my desperate words at the moment, and I want you to know that I’m not running away from anything, it’s just that part that only you know that kills me softly inside. But I gotta be strong.Thank God You have Gian now, he’s a great person and will take good care of you. I love you deeply.
You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story.
And suddenly I become a part of your past, I’m becoming the part that doesn’t last, I’m losing you and it’s effortless.
I Miss The Old Dayss.. fuck.
Things that make me happy:
- God: But I think he’s forgotten about me lately, and I can’t blame him though.
- Family: Their Love is the biggest, strongest and better ever, but as it is infinite and huge it still does not satisfies me.. :( Somehow I think Im broken.. must be. Cuz it’very unfair with them.
- Friends: But I’ve pushed most of them away allthough I didnt want to, due to personal reasons that I wish I could share with them, but I’ve learned that you CAN’T trust entirely, and I’ve learned that the hard way.. unfurtunely. I feel barely alone.. and it sucks. I try to make it work, but i feel overwhelmed sometimes.
- Hanging Out or Going Out: It’s not as fun anymore, because all the things that I had interest on or I used to love are starting to mean nothing, to quietly disappear from my list of Likes..
- Traveling: The one I want THE MOST right now, but is the one that seems so far away for me right now. Im just hoping on a miracle. > [Paris, France I want you so bad]< .
- Music: This is the one that never bails on me, I can count on her anytime, anywhere :)!.
- Photography: This One I madly, trully deeply love, but sometimes makes my complexes come out and I get all blue, but what the hell, I LOVE IT.
- My Lovely Boyfriend: I couldnt ask for more, he is someone unique, I adore the way he is, and how he treats me, I hope it keeps being this good. if you read this entry sometime I LOVE YOU TEDDY <33 . Thanks for being the light in my darkness.
I LOVE YOU ALL !
I’d like to read some of yor posts here (: !
I’ll tell you mine later.
When you feel like crap and sleeping until the next day.
So many wishes, and not enough 11:11’s to make ‘em haha.
I miss you. Whoever You are and.. it sucks. IT
I’ don’t wanna spill more tears for nothing.
I feel like expressing myself today.
I feel like doing nothing and crawl in bed.
“Im unclean, a Libertine”
Today it rained HARD as idk.. ! It bassicaly rained a lot. I had one of the most wonderful monrnigs in such a long time. I got to spend time with my amazing family, it was just lacking my daddy who had gone out to work, but still, my sister in law made some pancakes and we were kinda high after that hahah so we called em HIGH CAKES, if you read this YOU ARE TRULY AMAZING! :)! and i can’t explain how much I love you my dear.
On the same note, I’m so excited to start this business we’re planning. We just need to buy the essentials and hopefully everything will be ready for ext week. I already came up with a name, we just need a Logo and some samples to create a Fb page :)! So please, wish us luck! *-*
Later today, I was talking to someone I considered my friend, but I guess you have to RLLY work for that tittle nowadays. He was kinda hurtfull with a comment he said to me, I don´t even know why i care too much. bleh, life goes on right ?
So don’t let the world bring you down. Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold. Remember why you came and while you’re alive, experience the warmth before you grow old.”